Forcing myself to get things done.Because accumulating little stuff that needs to be done makes me super anxious.
Back in the day there was no concept of mental or psychic disorder. No ADHD, no OCD, no autism, nothing. No one tried to understand reasons of your behavior and mood, just assuming that you were simply naughty kid. They were trying to change you, break you with force, mental and physical. No one ever thought that you were simply ill.
What makes me angry the most is that if many kids have mental or behavioral disorders (which as a matter of fact a lot of kids do), they just assume it is normal. They stop looking at each kid with individual problem and say something along the lines of "everyone has it, it's normal".
I have rather high OCD, but nowadays many people do. So those who doesn't have it assume it's normal and you just need to calm down and don't make a big fuss about it. But they don't understand how hard it is. They have no idea how much struggle it is to cope with this disorder. We just need sympathy and understanding. We need a break.
People who never had an episode of depression will never understand how terrifying it is. We want to live a happy life. But something in our brains won't let us to. You want to focus on the positive but you are incapable to.
We don't want to drag attention to ourselves and be sorry for. We want understanding. We want acceptance of our disorder, not criticism.