I haven't been in this state for ages. It's a feeling of being on your own. Being your own. Being with yourself by yourself. It throws me back to three years ago. When I believed in some magic.
I think this is all because of the cycles. Cycles that make me a worse version of myself.
Now it feels like someone shifted one of the mirror walls and I suddenly saw everything from a different perspective.
I need my own space. I need my own time.
That is why I'm heading to a metal fest I don't really want to go to that much. Anymore. And it was bloody expensive. I wasn't really ready to part with that amount of money just to spend the whole day alone in a crowd. But then I convinced myself that the best time spent is in 99% when I don't want to have fun but make myself to.